having my Cake, eating it – and not counting every last calorie

eureka! January 5, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — c*devotchka @ 9:19 pm

but not in a good way.

we knew a luggage or a box was missing from the move but we didn’t know which exact one until tonight.  the granny’s coming in a few days, then the in-laws in a couple of weeks – they can’t sleep in a bedroom that resembles a store – so i cleared the remaining boxes from our move.

and i realised.

with a nauseating, sinking feeling in my tummy – it’s the box with all my photographs.


i mean all.

from the time i was born up to the day i bought a digital camera.

i knew i should have listened to my instinct and bought that scanner last year.

i knew it.

and now, all those pictures are gone.

excuse me while i disappear to mope and get a string of anxiety attacks – the eagerness to spontaneously combust into special moments a camera can make permanent.